Learning About Breast Cancer
to me it to me it seems that disease or discomfort caused by treatment, is somehow worse than the original disease.
Had a mastectomy. Thought would be the end of it.
No 1 to help no 1 to do anything. They're proposing chemo therapy, tthat five-year pill, AND radiation.
If I am so tired cannot keep my garden up and clean my house, that's the end of my life I will just have to walk off a cliff. Which isn't aa lot of fun. Got mentally ill son , nothing to live for. in fact if I died, wouldn't have to watch him die, guess they're always some advantages to anything.
Cancer could be looked on as a gift to escape a rubbish life. but it's hard not to worry about it. It is the worry that is the killer. chemo therapy looks to me like one of those Heironymous Bosch paintings, how can anyone live with all that horror and ugliness ? is there any point ? something is going to get you even if the cancer doesn't. What I fear most is being crippled and helpless, which it seems, the treatments are likely to do, bone thinning and arthritis are the most terrifying, mmy mil my mother lived in hell for 20 years and was any point at all, once you've seen something like that you do not want to go through it yourself.
I could stop where I am, just the mastectomy. Like that game of cards, where you just stop with what you've got.